On love and life

I've never posted anything about love and since I am quite sentimental today, I would. After reading an entry about love from a blog, I thought I could do that. But there was something about the way she writes it that touched my melodramatic side. She wasn't even actually lecturing about love, it was more of a reminder of how her friend showed her how to love faithfully, he showed her how sincere a man could be if it was "true love" (if it really existed).

And then it hit me, how have I loved since the first guy I thought I fell in love with. Well, maybe I did, but it was more of an infatuation and most my first was with him like a real date and all that though the relationship did not lasted long I'm still thankful since I learned something from him. To think of it, there was actually a lot I regretted when we were together. I mean, I was foolish, stupid, and naive back then. I didn't know how did I ever survived that page in my life. Then came next, this one was also a short one. We were both fast and didn't really know each other well which later on became a problem. I fell head over heels for him immediately. He was sincere, or I thought he was.  We were always together and he was so sweet and all that but somehow I don't like myself when I'm with him. He makes me feel not contented with myself like I needed to compete with the other girls he find attractive. I mean, I feel I was always less. This makes me believe on the saying that " you know he's the right one when he makes you feel good about yourself. " and that is exactly how I feel about the present one. 

Of course there are bumps along the way, and it wasn't all too good, wasn't even always the sweet things, but it was worth the stay. I guess what i'm really thankful for is that, if not because of those foolishness, stupidities, and mishaps I wouldn't be who I am today. I am more confident, part of it maybe because I am somehow informed now about how guys could be and I know now how to react and handle things better. At times they could be insensitive, dominant, careless.. and the likes but they could also be caring, gentle, loving, and patient. It also helps that I know now what I want and that I could be firm with it. 

Things happen for a reason they say, and most of the time that reason is unknown til the right moment comes, that we could finally fit the broken pieces again. Love is beautiful, it could take you to places, experience a lot of things and intoxicate you a bit. But it could also inflict pain in us. I learned, though it promise a lot, one should be careful and rational in dealing with it. Because like I said, it could sometimes hurt us. I also learned that communication plays a vital role in any relationships and that it should be a give and take process.

Sure there will be the not so good times but that is why you have each other to hold on to. A true gentleman and a true "partner" would never want to hurt you and would put you first. All of us deserves that someone. Maybe some are still with the I-am-here-to-give-you-a-lesson partner and haven'r found the right one yet, but it will come eventually. So take the time to learn so that when that someone comes, everything would be better and you are prepared for everyday would be a lovely day ahead!